Thursday, March 29, 2007
Well, I'm sick again. Seems like the flu bug has half my class down on MC. Ive been worrying about my grades, seems like I'm not doing too well with my maths, but other then that
everythings pretty normal.
Well, just yesterday someone asked me why I like sleeping so much. Well I've thought about it for a while and I've come to a conclusion that i enjoy sleeping so much is because............I don't have to deal with any kind of crap life throws at me. When I sleep, I tend not to dream that much, dreaming to me is... Well, too much like life. Sleeping to me is an escape from everything, there's no one to irritate you, no one to stab you in the back, nothing to make you feel bad, nothing to make you feel guilty. There is an absolute nothing, just a large space where i can forget about things.
I guess its like drugs, or smoking. You can escape reality for a few moments, but sooner or later your gonna have to come back.
Things have been quite bad lately, its not the problems i cant solve that bother me, its those which I can. I just feel like exploding. I need someone which I can trust, a person who wont back stab. I suppose I've met these people not too long ago. But with my amazing parents who broke up during my
PSLE, moving house 3 times in less then 2 months right in the middle of my freaking exams. Thanks
alot. Then there are those people who call themselves friends, who ditched me when I needed them the most, funniest thing?
They're from my church. After all this crap and more, I find it hard to trust people. Some day Ill explode if I
don't talk to someone.
